I'm so mean. Seriously. I feel so awful nowadays, cause it seems like I'm always yelling at my kids. Yelling at them to sit down, yelling at them to stand up, yelling at them to be quiet, yelling at them to calm down, you name it I've done it. I've had the talk with them, "we're not babies anymore, we're big boys and girls," to which one student replied, "yes, I baby! No big boy!" Oh geez, what have I gotten myself into? I know it probably doesn't seem very different to MOST people, it's such a difference going from pre-k to kindergarten last year and now back to pre-k. I mean going up a grade wasn't too much of a problem. Going down a grade is so hard! These kids really don't know ANYTHING! "What's your name?" Response: nod. "Boys and girls, say hi to Tina." What does Tina say?: "Hi, Tina." "What color is this apple?" Response: "APPLE!" AAAHHHHH! I know it will get better. I've been doing this long enough to know that. But I just love the people who walk into my room and say, "I'm so jealous! I would love to play all day!" Uh, play? Hello! Are you serious? Okay, let me just have them play, and then when they get to you and they don't know how to write, hold a scissor, line up, or speak, don't blame me! I was just playing with them!
I feel so forgotten this year. I'm an afterthought to everyone, especially my principal, and custodian. I find no solace in anyone else, because they've all got their own problems. Things could be worse. My principal could have it in for me, I guess. Maybe it's all this that's bringing my frustration level up. Who knows? I hope I can stay stable for the rest of the week. I need to pray for more patience. I need to pray for more compassion. I need to pray for more peace. I think I just need to pray. In prayer there is truth, and in truth there is God. Getting caught up in worldly things is so easy, especially at my work. Seeking truth and not false dreams, ideals or expectations will be my goal. I will update on the progress of this next week.
"the truth shall make you free."
-John 8:32
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i love the story of the boy who wants to be a baby. I even mentioned it to Phoenix today. I'm sure you'll get to stop yelling soon, when they get the picture.
But prayer can only help. :)
Hey Stace... great being with you guys last night... Man, I totally understand where you're coming from. I also "love" when people have no clue and think all we do is play... Hello! Who teaches these children the basics?? Should they just teach themselves?? When they move on to kindergarten next year, let's see if it will make a difference that they've been in our classes... I know you'll survive... you're amazing... those kids won't know what hit them in a little bit... you'll be wishing that they'll shut up if anything!! And of course, prayer is always the right answer for everything--you'll be in mine!! Keep the updates coming... Love, Raquel
I baby. No big boy. I baby.
You are not forgotten. Well, not by me. As for your principal, who knows. Like you said, they could just have it out for you.
Hey Stacey
Don't forget the year just started. Your principal trusts you. She knows she doesn't need to be around for you to do your job well done. She is trying to fix the ones who need help and close supervision. Believe me!
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