One person....

It's been a month since my last post. What an insane month it has been. I guess the biggest lesson I've learned is that one person can affect others in profound and unknown ways. My grandmother passed away late last month and I miss her very much. She was a grandma in the true sense. So kind, so loving, and who she was to us grandkids seemed to be who she was in real life. I like knowing that, finding out those things now. Her death has impacted our family greatly, and I just think about what will happen now, with her gone. My mom is really sad, and I feel for her and my dad too who loved her and miss her so much. I must admit I didn't think her death would affect me so much. I remember how precious life is, and that we should treasure all of our moments on earth with our loved ones. I realize my own parents' mortalities, as now my grandma's generation is almost gone. These thoughts have made me shift my attitude a bit. I'm trying not to take things so seriously. I'm not going to get worked up over things I have no control over. At my work, I've resolved to let things go more, and just do my own personal best. I'm going to be happy, even if I don't want to be. I know my grandmother had a rough and painful life, but she never let it show. She always had a smile on her face and she always was the peacemaker. She always gave everything she had to us, and sacrificed so much for the ones she loved. If I can do anything to honor her memory, I can live by her example. I can show her that she made a difference in my life, and I hope to one day do that for someone too.