Yay! It's over!

I'm so happy that my observation with my principal is over. She seemed to be pleased with my lesson, and I caught a few glances of her doing an approving nod or two while I was teaching, so that's a good sign. But I still have to meet with her, post observation to see how I really did.

I was so nervous throughout the whole thing, but my para (assistant) said I seemed pretty calm. I think that it was great that I was in my element though, with pre-k. Perhaps in another grade I would be even more nervous, but it was a good and strong lesson, which I've done a million times (but she didn't have to know that).

I just feel drained right now. I've spent the better part of the past week preparing for this lesson, and getting my classroom "presentation ready." I think that no matter how many years I've been doing this, I'll always be nervous when I'm being observed. I think it's my character, and I just feel so self conscious, because I know someone is watching me. As a child, I never liked anyone to look at me. I was very shy and my teachers often told my parents that I was "challenging" them because I never spoke. It's funny looking back now at those teachers and the things they said and the way they treated me, because I just see how they made me not feel safe and not want to talk even more! It's so funny but I think that these bad teachers make me a better teacher today, and maybe even a better person!